Day 2.2, 2025

 Day Two

We're looking for small wins and trying not to get discouraged by a horrid thing I heard this morning.  To paraphrase it was 'forget 21 days to make a habit, it actually takes 66 days'  --66 DAYS!!!--

That's over two months and honestly it makes sense but the truth hurts my friends.

I am aware that I bite off more than I can chew when it comes to 'fixing' my evil ways and, when you sprinkle a little perfectionism on top, that it makes for a rapidly approaching dead end.

I want to say 'So I'm just doing one thing a day' but really I think I should take the mindset approach of 'what would a '_____' person do right now'.  Perhaps I can trick this brain into using the people pleasing for good and switch over to pleasing myself instead of that default of changing myself to please another person.

Sorry there's probably a tangent that I could spiral into there and I'd like to avoid that noise so let's just use the cliche 'I'll choose me' instead of 'how can I help you like me'

It is painful to admit that my head defaults to some pretty lame shit.  Honestly, I hear a tape playing in my head that I've listened to before and then my mums voice saying 'You can't think like that...'

Sometimes it's nice to think of the advice I received from mum and see the wisdom she was trying to download into me.  Especially as a mother of teens who often look at me like my face is the oddest sight they've ever seen wondering why I'm speaking a foreign lauguage with a weird voice.  Maybe they will eventually hear me too.  Hopefully they only remember the good stuff.....

Today I;

• was a smart eater
• am a runner
• enjoy strength training
• love my bicycle
• write for pleasure

Here's to smart choices,

C

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