Day Eighteen, 2025

 Grocery Haul!

Why is it that when I go grocery shopping I over-purchase?  It's as though I think I may never see this item again or that I know about some strange apocalypse that's headed our way or maybe I just can't bear the thought of EVER setting foot in this building again - while similtaneously forgetting that food does perish.

I try not to shop hungry, I make a list (not based of meal planning but based on 'staples'), I bring J as a vocal reminder that we don't need this mush food and yet I somehow leave with more than planned.  Our freezer is stocked, our fridge can't circulate cold air properly by the time I'm done and lets not even talk about the cupboards.  Then the kids complain there's nothing to eat because almost everything requires preparation except the goldfish crackers.

When we moved to this new house a selling point for us was the kitchen & a huge perk was the lack of microwave.  At the last house we had one over the stove with a build in vent that was basically a bread box unless my coffee got cold.  So the kids default to toasted bagels when their lazy and avoided all cooking until recently.  Point of all that is that convenience food is less convenient for everyone.

We're also vegetarian, so it should be easy to just grab an apple - but honestly, who does that as a teen... or an adult.

I LOVE potato chips - that is my comfort food and next months challenge is whole food only so I'm trying to crowd out the snacks plus try getting some habits started now but I see bumps in the future if I'm still purchasing things for the kids and J.  I may need to eat all my meals alone and avoid specific cupboards completely in order for this to challenge to work... Still developing my plan of attack on this action.

Side note I did hear myself proclaim that this is a gorge weekend.  How in the heck do I even allow myself to say that out load when I'm a little disgusted by my body I am not sure.  Somehow I ignore my better inside voice all that freaking time - so that's going to have to stop too.

Now I'm all up in my head about likelihood of failure so it's time to stop thinking.  I should go eat something and make space in that silly fridge.... to make space for crowding stuff out of course.... :)

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Action VS Grief