Day Nine, 2025

 Action = Guilt & Was it worth it?

After yesterday's little hissy fit/rant I went to work to find exactly the emails that I was expecting & there has been a decision made,  I decision that I now feel guilt about hoping for & pushing for.

That has been what this evenings background noise is all about,  Guilt for my part, standing up to say I couldn't take it anymore and hearing echos of 'we agree you shouldn't have to' and now I feel guilt for not being stronger and able to handle more.  It's a whole new level of people pleasing that I need to conquer.

I have avoided typing this and trying to distract myself with shows because it's not comfortable to feel both guilt and vindication.  What I've hoped for will not cause undue harm or create livelihood struggles but it still feels dirty.

Just struggling with that, Action = Guilt

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Action VS Grief

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