Day Thirty-One, 2025

 One Month Done

Well I started the month strong and life crept in bringing me down to just 2 daily must-do's. Walk & Write.

Not all of the walks have been perfect & not all of the writing has been the best I'm capable of but the practice has happened.

Next month I was going to start no processed food but that is a big ask for a girl who has been wanting to be vegan and slipping for years.  I'd love to dig deep and start February strong with ONLY whole foods, daily strength training, mastering or just learning my 'trade' better with added daily watercolour practice, reading and gratitude journaling - but that would leave not enough time for sleep.

Knowing myself I'm setting the bar low for February.  I'm adding the following with hopes of doing them every day;

• Water - one full container a day, minimum
• Whole Foods based diet with minimal processed food
• Waist - trying to lose a few pounds by not eating after 7pm
• Waste reduction - trying to minimize tv streaming time and get more reading in.

So really the only measurable is Water & no eating after 7pm - the others are guidelines.

Planning to use my purse journal to track what I eat (everything) and set one goal to accomplish each day.  This goal won't be declutter the furnace room it will be more like sort through one box in the furnace room, spend 15 minutes decluttering, organize one cupboard, make an appointment for therapy, etc.  

We're chunking this month out so I can eliminate overwhelm and just make progress.

Other than all that over thinking - can we agree that teenage daughters with strong wills are a blessing because they stand up for themselves even when it isn't convenient for their parents.  I need to be thankful instead of annoyed.  She will be a strong woman and I do not want to win a curfew chat but lose her talking to me about her problems - really I don't sleep well know she's out but she's headed to college this year so I need to be able to trust and have dialogue now so I can learn to rest easy later when she's making her own choices.

Fact is I'm mad she's stopped asking and hasn't switched to conversation - shes gone straight to telling us where she'll be going and it's become hard to pump the brakes on that to get her back to checking in to see if her plan works for the other people in the house.  It's also exhausting to try to talk about it when we're both tired and her shoes are on.  Her growing up is happening too fast.

C

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