Day Three, 2025

 The joy of trying to let the schtuff just roll off and not effect you

Seriously this may be my favourite thing right now & it's also a work in progress.  Mel Robbins would maybe call it her Let Them Theory and I'm calling the Schtuff don't stick mentality.  

This act goes against my very core of holding grudges, mess with me to a certain point and I'm done.  It almost feels like just a variation of the grudge - sort of a fake it til you make it thing - I'm hoping I can pass this stage and make it through to the ACTUALLY not letting shit eat me to the core.

Time will tell.  All I know is I feel happier, though I felt the slight, because I know the other person is just working through things on their own and I AM NOT responsible for another person's feelings.

My duty is to be genuine.

I have faked it for so long the genuine feels like the fake bit - & that is not right.  All my people pleasing has created this topsy-turvy mindset where up is down and down is up.  SO this may get uncomfortable but I will be genuine and someone I can trust.

Hopefully this will make me into a more trust worthy person and people will know where I stand, that my joy is pure and that my heart is genuine.

I owe this.

This 'People' (this person right here typing) deserves to be pleased to. she typed while trying not to gag 

Another day passed, and so far a good one.

C

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