Day Fifty-Two, 2025

 Stiffness

My brain gets so dug in on certain subjects and I get along with me ok but there is no way that I am right all of the time.  How do I know that I'm improving as a person if I only ever think about what I believe in?

Maybe the correct word is evolving.

If I get to a point where there is no changing does that make me as good as I can be - shouldn't I keep trying to understand where others are 'coming from' when they state their opinions?  Shouldn't I keep trying to see the good in another persons actions?

On the other side should I be trying to encourage or help other people to get better by engaging with them.  Example being, when I feel harmed by them, is it ok for me to give up on them and cut them off?  Or should I keep trying to give them the benefit of the doubt and stay silent hoping they will do some reflection?

Is that the definition of passive-aggressive?  

Alternately, who said I had to engage with people who have hurt me to try to teach them the harm caused by their choices?  Do I need to throw myself on that bomb so they don't hurt another in the same way?

Back to the 'lord never gives you things you can't handle' way of thinking.  

This constant attack is causing stiffness in my neck, weakness in my backbone and is frankly just a pain in the ass.  

I'm close to done being the strong one, mercy/uncle/time-out - pick your safe word 

I'd like to just continue to cut people off after they have reached maximum pain threshold - but I should probably start saying Owwww more often.  Damn it.

Owww, ffs cut it out world.  We're trying to evolve here and you are seriously messing with everyone's progress towards happiness.

C

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