Day Forty-Four, 2025

 Evaluation

I finally got up the courage to ask for more and I'm worried I did the wrong thing though it was the right thing to do.  

I started off behind the rest with a willingness to prove myself and give more than required to earn more opportunity and I've received the opportunity but without the correct pay level.  I figured 'no problem, I'll work more to prove my ability and Then I will see the reward'.  Problem is, it's been a year and a half of work and in a few short months I will receive more work as someone retires (work that I am unable to delegate).  

The work is getting done, slowly because there are only so many hours in the day and I'm still on the hook for my old job whenever staff coverage is needed.  This is yet another problem to be addressed but at this point I'm so swamped I'm just happy when they show up because there is no way I can squeeze in another hiring hunt & process with added staff training for ANOTHER person.

Point is I feel myself being pulled in so many different directions in this new role, doing so much more than my predecessor did, and making quite a chunk less than she was.  All while I watch men in the office being promoted and hired for substantially more than I am and receiving perks while I'm told I need to wait for bonus time.  None of those men have issue asking me to do things for them and none of those men would offer to help while they watch me drowning in work - they just compliment and say 'I don't know how you do it'.

At this point I'm worried that the 'bonus' will be so much less then I've been led to believe it could be and  that I will be unable to swallow this work load much longer but there is only more work coming my way.

So I did it. I asked that a discussion is had with board members to discuss my next raise.  I was told it would maybe be a thousand though I have watched the board go to bat for others and get them a 50% increase while I get double the work 15%.

I know that my asking was an annoyance and a big part of me doesn't care because I've earned the right to be paid correctly for the stress.  However I do need this job so the look received stopped me in my tracks when I asked.

Stay in school kids, degrees earn - experience and ability is easily overlooked without a piece of paper.

C

Action VS Grief