Day Forty-Nine, 2025

 When is enough Enough?

This is not a new problem.  I am around and a source of information for people who don't understand the concept of interrupting.

People who repeat questions when told I'll have to come to you when I'm done, please review the instructions in your book, I'm just in the middle of something, I'll need to finish this first.

People who repeat and walk further into your space, saying 'this will just be quick' or something similar.  Some of the things I do are confidential.  Would you ever walk into someones office and come around their desk, speak to them without making eye contact so you can read their screen or try to look at the work in front of them.

I'm seriously tempted to just keep my door shut or begin placing boxes in the doorway - blocking access to the side of the desk.  It is driving me crazy. I have multiple large projects and need focus time but polite isn't working.

Should I feel so stretched and unable to concentrate that I am in tears at the end of the day because the few things I wanted to accomplish today did not get to the level of complete that I need them to be at.  

It's at a point where it's my feelings or their's and I have to choose mine.  

I find my self googling how to get your coworkers to stop interrupting your work and watching youtube videos to try to find techniques but what I want to do is scream FFFFFFFFFFFF OOOOOFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!  Polite sure ISN'T Working.

What can I do?  I will lose all progress I've made not screaming for years if I break now but I don't think anything else is going to work.  It's all just compacted by the fact that I am overworked.

I think tomorrow I work with my door closed and get some focused work completed.  It's the only way I can recover this week.

Plus a good nights sleep.

Action = not spazzing out

Grief = worry that I'm at the end of my rope here and will lose everything I've been working towards because I have too much work

J agrees to me getting paid for any extra time I work but doesn't want me there late...?  How in the world so I get everything done?  Maybe earlier starts instead of late stays is the best approach?

Car is in the shop (another thing that happened today) so tomorrow I drive my 'crack of dawn' husband to work & start 2 hours early...

Think we should call it a night and hope I have ability to remain calm tomorrow.

C

Acttion VS Grief