Day Forty-Two, 2025

 The day runs away again

I am a woman who craves results.

I am a woman who wakes up with plans for her day.

I am not often the younger version of myself who approaches the day with a free-spirit mindset, I am trying to Prove I should Be where I Am.

I am a woman who helps.

I am a woman who is not great at saying no.

I am a woman who loves to dig deep into a topic, to truly understand.

I am a woman who like rules, likes to know what's needed, likes to know I've done what needs doing.

I am a woman who helps.

I am a woman who is not great at saying no.

I am a woman interrupted (secretly, silently screaming) helping anyway.

I am a woman who needs to bitch up, stand my ground, say no and then NOT think about how I've disappointed.

I am a girl inside a woman's body who wants to make enough money to not worry about bills, buying clothes that flatter and fit as my body continues to change.

I am trying

That's really all I can do. 

C

Action VS Grief