Day Thirty-Four, 2025

 Old glasses, new outlook?   

It's likely all in my head or because I actually slept well last night but today was a good day.

It's ridiculous how you know things are good and helpful but making them happen is hard.  STarted the day with a little perspective being streamed at me by Dr. Rangen Chatterjee's Feel Better, Live More podcast & Glennon Doyle's We Can Do Hard Things podcast then got to work to close the previous month and learn that yet again employee's cant come to work and I'm left to cover again.

I guess I was so recharged after a nice weekend that I was just able to let it slide right past me.

My email is jammed and I'm attacking things as I can get to them instead of panic each time the notification goes off.  Another co-worker makes her usual comments when she doesn't like the answer she gets and I just repeated the same answer and moved on.

Either I've completely lost all hope of being able to catch up and I'm finally broken OR I've found my centre.  The place from which I can look at things with perspective, let the slights bounce off my cool exterior and just keep plugging along - I'm the freaking little engine that could - no one else wants this but I think I can excel at it.  With a good nights rest taken repeatedly, maybe I can 'manifest' this into my reality.

I'm so sick of just pounding away waiting for the next bad thing to happen or pounding away thinking 'I've finally figured it out!' and then a bad things happens and messes up the whole day.

I just need rest, and that's where I'm headed now - after I finish drinking this water bottle

Until tomorrow

C

Action VS Grief