Day Thirty-Nine, 2025

 A movie & some non-alcoholic bubbly with a friend?

Still feeling off about yesterday and have had a headache all day that's probably caused by the barometric pressure - the storm is slowing down outside but my head is still pounding.  Even though I was able to get a nap in I think I need to call it a night soon.

Middle ended up hanging out at home and knowing she was feeling down about a few things I tried to turn this evening into an experience.  We went for a very short walk (teens who don't dress for the weather get cold lol) then once home I brought out a leftover bottle of TOST that I had bought for mother and father in laws 50th last year.  Poured that into our (J&I's) special crystal flutes that were in our wedding gift basket almost 25 years ago and we toasted middle.  Her life, the blessing she is, how much I love her and a happy 9 month anniversary with her boyfriend.  Then we watched a movie called Kinda Pregnant.

It's a shitty feeling not being able to fix things for your kids.  Its horrid trying to talk them down and they end up feeling attacked or that you'd don't care.  Despite all that she went for a walk, held my arm as we got pulled along by soul-dog and she opened up.

The evening ended up being nice.  She's currently on facetime with friends, being honest about her feelings and hopefully she'll sleep soundly tonight.

No idea how to fix things for her or me or anyone so here's a little toast to all of us finding a little peace and space not to worry so much.

C

Action VS Grief