Day 1.2 - Canada Day

 I'm back.

Weighing 177.8 lbs as of this morning an getting back on the 'love myself' health train.

I've fallen back to working too much, eating too much, watching too much, doing all the things that shut off my brain so I don't need to think about what's bothering me and of course creating more things with these shit habits that just add to the stack of things that bother me.

Surrounded by a healthy husband who is good at making me see the lighter side, kids who are growing and preparing to move on I have this rare gift of seeing the grey storm cloud while acting like I see silver linings (fake it til' you make it).  I feel deceitful.  Letting myself down and not showing up the way I want to.  Once again, my own worst enemy.

So I did the usual and set a start date.  July 1st.

Let's try this again.

Today I am;

• vegan
• a cyclist
• a runner in training
• a writer
• a person who will be in bed before 11

Planning to show up genuinely tomorrow.

C

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